A common misconception about performing artists is that we are fearless. Audiences view our work and believe that the bold confidence expressed on stage is consistent off of it, too. In reality, this is far from the truth. The fear of simply being seen consumes conservatory students from time to time.
Even the most personable, extroverted or talented individuals I know have tendencies to hold themselves back to avoid judgment from others. This stunts growth and traps potential. So why do artists allow themselves to be concerned with the opinions of those around us?
To begin, within a highly competitive program we are constantly aware of how we are being perceived. It can feel as though we are closely observed by both professors and peers, and our success is measured by “who is getting cast,” or even “who is working the hardest in class.”
It’s also easy to fall into the trap of judging others out of jealousy for opportunities they pursue. This insecure mindset only reinforces the belief that your own actions are being assessed just as closely.
Beyond comparison, another reason we fear judgment is because we’re nervous we create or perform a task “wrong.” In such a high-pressure environment, students may be convinced there is a “right” way to interpret a scene or choreograph a phrase. We hold back instead of taking risks, as that might lead to failure.
Outside the classroom or rehearsal space, self-consciousness can grow even stronger. We often put peers on a pedestal, valuing their skills so much that their opinions start to matter more than our own. In creative classes, we play it safe to avoid seeming “weird” or overly eager. And sometimes, we’re even embarrassed to be seen working hard when it seems effortless for the people we admire most.
Evidently there are various reasons why COPA students experience fear of judgment so frequently. It’s important to combat this, as it disconnects us from what we love. It can even prevent you from making decisions vital to your career path.
For example, a dancer idolizes a choreographer but isn’t cast in their piece. They want to ask to observe rehearsals, but hold back out of fear of what others might think, preventing themselves from making a connection vital to their future.
This fear can be managed with practice and self-awareness. By focusing on your individual path, you care less about what others are thinking of you. It’s also important to remember that some people will judge you regardless of what you do, so it’s easiest to simply do what fulfills you the most.
Being confident in yourself is key. By trusting who you are and what you create, you stress less about how it’s perceived. You will also take feedback and criticism less personally.
When you let go of judgment, you make space for honesty and the kind of artistry that is impactful.
COPA students have their own issues that deserve to be acknowledged and highlighted. Email me at [email protected] with yours.
